duo lingo !

fucking lost my streak didn't i?

PSA.

the past few weeks have been me running at a steady pace from responsibility. i drank too much, neglected looking after myself, & have essentially fallen apart. i say steady with full vindication. it's been danger, but it's not that deep. you fully don't need to worry about me, there's bigger issues at hand.

last night i raced my friend ethan (komaro) over 100 some metres, and even though I narrowly won, I severely pulled a muscle in my leg which left me limping for the rest of the night, and even now. like bro how am I getting to the willesden later. anyways, following my injury I had a strong desire to uber home, however all the money I wasted was looming over me and I decided to bus it home. as painful as it was, i needed that hurt as a catalyst man. i forgot what it means to be. sometimes you have to walk thru the fire for the greater good. sometimes you gotta keep walking through the dark even though you only see the next few metres. a lot of things I put off. today I'm back on my bullshit fr. 

as small as it was, i'm mad proud of myself for not playing madeinTYO - uber everywhere last night to end up burning a hole in my pocket. I'm glad no one picked up the phone last night. as much as I needed a shoulder to cry on, it's refreshing to remember that there's no one that can help you more than yourself.

i haven't got all the answers. i haven't even got my fucking leg back. soon as I do tho, i'm running. this time not towards the danger or away from myself, this time the right way. full speed til my body drop ! 2024, i got a lot of prospects. 

alas, wasted money & beautiful memories. too much alcohol & good stories. heartache but i love pain, it's all a part of the journey. tarot card reading told me as much. another thing it told me was, being radically yourself isn't the issue. the issue is the trust that comes with that. there's a certain uncertainty in the air at the moment, and i can't wait to figure it all out.

anyways. s/o rawda for taking me under her wing on tour last night. you & matt killed it!

weigh down on me, feat. DVRRYL. 31st May. pre-save for a chance to win some merch !

(the good thing about duo lingo streaks is you can get it back)