the day we made the demo i was randomly heading out when Guus hit me up and told me he was in studio, some people had cancelled on him. he asked me to pull up & told me to invite whoever. i shouted rawda, we had made a couple songs in the past few weeks so we were on a good streak, made sense to go 5 for 5 init ?
when we got there, we sat and caught up with each other, what we've been up to, who we've been working with, and what songs we've made. me and rawda showed him a song we made with Dylan a week prior and all that. some slow r&b love song. i personally luv that song, rawda feels like it needs work. if you're reading this we're gna finish that.
but anyways, guus did what guus does & played in them keyyyyyys bro. them keyyyyyyyyyys. i live for this. me & rawda both went into our corners and started mumbling words//collided thoughts after 15 mins and were like, yo ! we got the subject.
the thing about going with the flow, adrenaline and alla that is, you never deep what you're doing in the moment. i instantly went into this one situation where this one guy who was supposed to be my friend snaked me for 4bills. if you know me, you know the one. i hold grudges & i'm not perfect, some shit just gets to me tho. i never knew i could forgive that, but when i deep it i had to cause it was cutting me up man. if i spoke to em about it they'd gaslight and give one two reasons why it's not what it looks like or whatever, but how you gonna do that when my p's are missing and you've got em ? & i know this cause i've tried !
maybe you've experienced something similar, where you're tryna explain why someone's done you wrong and they're not hearing it. maybe to them it's a joke. and maybe it's time you free yourself from that !
what i'm tryna say is, forgiveness is something you gotta do for yourself. some people won't respect that growth, but fuck em. it's not for em. remember why and you'll be fine.
lights off is a reminder of that. lights off is for when you forget. lights off is your safe haven.
like my good friend MissLoulou says, learn to forgive ! your soul will grow much older !
- mase J
